My husband won a handgun in a raffle at a local fire department. Michael was having a rough time with school at 16 years old and decided that suicide was the answer. So he found the gun and bullets and shot himself in the head! I miss him every day! I wonder what he would have done with his life; he was such a great kid. You never forget it, but you have to learn to live with the pain and that empty place in your heart!