My brother died. My wonderful, smart, supportive brother committed suicide by gun when I was 36 and he was 48. We have a history of gun violence in the family. My father took his life in the same way, when I was 12 years old. I have never truly recovered from either loss. I joined a SOS group (survivors of suicide) that helped some in my realizing I was not alone. My brother was my role model in life and I miss him terribly. These losses helped to shape much of my life. I never want anyone to have to go through what I have. Also therapy has helped me deal with the losses.