More than 30 years ago, my children’s father committed suicide with a gun. Even though there was a history of suicide in his family, he also had a long history of alcoholism and had been drinking heavily before this.
His suicide has deeply affected his children to this day in many ways. Even though he and I had been divorced for many years prior, it seems like just yesterday. For a long time I blamed myself because I didn’t understand what he was telling me for several months beforehand, but I understand better now. However, the anger and grief still remain for all of us.